sleepless

My worst nightmare does not even require me to be asleep to begin with.

Its those moments without you that hit me. When i am truly without you. When the distance really sinks in.

Oh, how i dread that feeling. I've been there before and the pain is relentless everytime it hits.

What is meant to be mental pain becomes so real that it turns into physical pain. The slow, sharp prod in the heart; with every throb sending waves of acid to every inch of my body. Slowly, burning. Like salt to the wounds.

The hightlight of the nightmare is the fact that i've been there before, and i'll be there again in the near future.

Recurrent.

Scares me shitless every ****ing time.